'always' love

Sometimes love is sweet
Sometimes love is bitter
It makes you want to leap
And makes you scream
Sometimes love will make you cry.
It will rip your heart out,
Make you feel like you’ve died
Sometimes love is all I’ve known.
It’s just not good enough to get me through.
This is how I’ve learned it-
Show me I’m wrong.
Show me there’s another love
No strings attached. Strong.
You’ve loved me faithfully with always love
That’s surely true.
Why do I only give my sometimes love back to you?
I want to be different-
You’re changing my heart-
Removing the poison of the dark.
Someday soon I’ll return to you always love.
Always love is patient.
Always love is kind.
Always love is humble-keeping others in mind
Always love is gentle, peaceful, and true.
Always love rejoices and
perseveres because it is You.

Your love is always. Always perfect, never failing, surely prevailing. But he love I’ve known hurts. It makes me unsure, doubtful, insecure. This isn’t your love, but the love of this world. It’s bitter and selfish. It scorches my soul. I feel lost… fearful… out of control. My heart so longs to wander off where it will, but it knows not where to go. My mind seems off and floating, confused by where I’ve come to. I am a simple man who is wandering through the city without a map. There is no one to help. There are others here, but they have no directions. They want to help, but they send me in circles. How do I get there? How do I get to where you are? Where is the one? Where is the place for me? Only you know how to get me there. You yourself are the key. This I know, but the heart indeed is slow to learn. Help me to believe- mind, heart, and soul- that you, O Lord, are my full control. It’s your love I seek. You take me there.