memo
I just don't remember details like I used to. I hate it.
My memory is not as sharp as years gone by. Come to think of it, it's not only that I miss details, I sometimes miss really significant things too.
I HATE it!
Usually, my memory lapses come in the form of an incorrect procedure at the coffee shop or a missed appointment during the week. These lapses are clearly not preferable, but they are forgivable.
The trouble comes when my memory decides to blot out specifics during meetings or promises that I have made. I HATE IT!
My life is devoted to following Christ and sharing His life-message with everyone that I encounter. To do this effectively I believe I must uphold high standards of honesty, reliability, and integrity. When I fail in these areas I get disappointed in myself. But when I fail in these areas and it causes pain for others... Well, I get downright angry at myself.
People deserve better than my feeble excuses. God deserves better than my seemingly endless string of failures.
I HATE THIS!
My memory is not as sharp as years gone by. Come to think of it, it's not only that I miss details, I sometimes miss really significant things too.
I HATE it!
Usually, my memory lapses come in the form of an incorrect procedure at the coffee shop or a missed appointment during the week. These lapses are clearly not preferable, but they are forgivable.
The trouble comes when my memory decides to blot out specifics during meetings or promises that I have made. I HATE IT!
My life is devoted to following Christ and sharing His life-message with everyone that I encounter. To do this effectively I believe I must uphold high standards of honesty, reliability, and integrity. When I fail in these areas I get disappointed in myself. But when I fail in these areas and it causes pain for others... Well, I get downright angry at myself.
People deserve better than my feeble excuses. God deserves better than my seemingly endless string of failures.
I HATE THIS!
posted by Gregg @ 8:30 PM
2 Comments:
At 14/3/08 10:36 PM,
Dusk Watchman said…
Romans 7:15) For what I am working out I do not know. For what I wish, this I do not practice; but what I hate is what I do. 16) However, if what I do not wish is what I do, I agree that the Law is fine. 17) But now the one working it out is no longer I, but sin that resides in me. 18) For I know that in me, that is, in my flesh, there dwells nothing good; for ability to wish is present with me, but ability to work out what is fine is not [present]. 19) For the good that I wish I do not do, but the bad that I do not wish is what I practice. 20) If, now, what I do not wish is what I do, the one working it out is no longer I, but the sin dwelling in me.
21) I find, then, this law in my case: that when I wish to do what is right, what is bad is present with me. 22) I really delight in the law of God according to the man I am within, 23) but I behold in my members another law warring against the law of my mind and leading me captive to sin’s law that is in my members. 24) Miserable man that I am! Who will rescue me from the body undergoing this death? 25) Thanks to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So, then, with [my] mind I myself am a slave to God’s law, but with [my] flesh to sin’s law.
Ch. 8:1) Therefore those in union with Christ Jesus have no condemnation. 2) For the law of that spirit which gives life in union with Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death.
I stopped making time for spiritual things a while back. I've hated myself ever since. I don't tell most people-anyone since I've moved from AZ, but I was a practicing minister for the better part of three years. Nothing,I mean NOTHING felt so fine. Not even marriage. It said said that you can pray for anything (that is clean and spiritually beneficial) and it will be added to you. I remember praying for wisdom once upon a time. I received it. i should start that again. Of course I should start praying again!
Perhaps simply adding something like "strength of memory" to your prayers might prove to be beneficial to you.
At 24/3/08 10:49 PM,
Anonymous said…
Through a random chain of events and clicking, I've stumbled across your blog. (Of course, there's always the possibility it wasn't quite that random....the older I get the less "random" things seem and the more I see how God is weaving my life.....anyway!) I came across your blog, read some and have just been so encouraged about a few things: 1) The fact that just because you're a pastor doesn't mean you have to be perfect--well, at least look perfect to those around you. Thanks for sharing your struggles. 2) The fact that you quote Princess Bride and Regina Spektor--and now I have to go listen to that song cuz it's stuck in my head. 3) Wisconsin is too cold, thanks for that reminder as I complain about our "cold weather" in StL :oP Anyway, just wanted to let you know from a "random" stranger, I think it's amazing how you're letting God use you.
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