identity war

Staring at the ceiling,
The darkness all around me.
Night after night wide open
But nothing do me eyes see

Every bump and crack
These walls I know so well
I’m confined in here
But the walls are not my cell
Only my heart is

A prisoner of the war
Between mind and all emotion
Tears well within my soul
A pit deep as the oceans
Why don’t they come?
Streaking dampness down my cheeks?
My heart is numb
My will- so weak.

Her smile- always before me
So too the light in her eyes
Her voice is that sweet melody
With laughter as harmony
Her presence haunts me day and night

Can you see me standing here in front of you?
Your eyes are cutting through me.
Do you see the love I have for you?
Or am I just another admiring man?

Day after day I live and speak and keep on going.
Am I a brother, a friend, anything more?
My life goes by as I wonder, never knowing.
Or am I just another desiring man?

Here I am! Just look at me.
Truly take a look at me.
See the heart of this man.
No pretense, no reservation
I’ve got nothing left to hide
My heart’s door flung open wide.
There’s nothing left to hide.